My mood has not been the best of late. I have been hunting high and low for treatment which suits me, my budget, my personality, my gut feel. It’s not easy. I’ve also been battling the ‘to do chemo’ vs. ‘not to do chemo’ debate. On the one hand it could save my life, on the other could ruin my health and immune system – not a great choice. So I have been doing a lot of research and speaking to many people. I’ve had some therapy treatments on the emotional and spiritual side and those were great. Still I did not have the answer I wanted.
The one answer I received was you need to know and ‘feel’ the best treatment for you personally and that only you can decide. Tough one. So with all my preconceptions about chemo and all my natural leanings towards the ‘hippy’ way this was a very hard decision to come to.
Today I had the appointment with my oncologist to discuss treatment. She is lovely – we will call her Dr Kind. She explained everything to me – what chemo treatment they can offer me and why. We spoke in great length about the side effects and any questions I had she answered. She even offered the services of a social worker should I feel that my daughter may need counseling. In short, she was amazing. She put me at ease and I feel much more confident and in control about the chemo now. It’s no longer the big bad wolf at the door. I am not going to lie and say this is going to be an easy road but at least now I am informed. The monster has been demystified and it’s not really a monster, it’s just another tool that can help me on my road to perfect health.