Tuesday, April 30, 2013

On the Road to Recovery

Last night I went for another scan with my alternate healer and was corrected with the name. It’s not RIFE (that’s the machine that I am using for treatment), however the scan is called ETA. See my hyperlink for further details on that. Anyway the scan showed VERY positive results and improvement in all areas so all this means that I am doing (combination thereof) is working! Small happy dance. J

Today was supposed to be chemo day but my oncology doc is being very cautious. My HG (haemoglobin) count was 1.8 below what it should be so I am being booked in today to hospital for a blood transfusion. Chemo will then be postponed until next week Tuesday. I am VERY happy with the doctor’s approach and she is very satisfied with all my symptom reduction and progress so far. I am now quietly confident that all will be well. So it’s off to hospital for me at 3pm today but not fussed, this is just another tool, part of the process. Last time after transfusion I felt wonderful so hope to feel the same this time, even though I am not feeling bad at all – no tiredness etc.

I also 'test drove’ the wig today out in public to a hugely positive reaction – winner! 

So far so good everyone – so please keep up the positive messages, vibrations, prayers etc. They are definitely working and helping! J

Monday, April 29, 2013

Angel Card Reading I received today

If you are in anyway averse to 'shoowaah' hippy stuff then please look away now. For those of you interested here is my card reading I receive weekly. This one is particularly pertinent to me and my situation so I thought I would share it. 

The Eyes of Beauty eyes of beauty
 Positive expectations, clarity
Drawn from: Wisdom of the Hidden Realms - Colette Baron-Reid
The Eyes of Beauty require you to examine your perceptions. Do you see the world as perfect and beautiful? Can you retrace your steps from your past to now and see the perfection in the way reality has been created?
Truly, perception is everything.
A glass half-empty is the same asa glass half-full, yet so different according to how it's perceived.
The Eyes of Beauty remind youthat if you move forward with conviction, all is well now and always will be.You will see true prosperity as a result.
Expect to see beauty and you willattract your highest good.

Affirmation: I AM pure potential!Today I step out of my comfort zone into my possibility zone.

Kynite kynite
Inner Bridges - Storm Element
Drawn from: The Crystal AllyCards - Naisha Ahsian
Kyanite has come to you to aidyou in making those inner and outer connections that are necessary for yourdevelopment.
Perhaps a new relationship or opportunity is moving your way which will aid you on your path. Or perhaps you are being asked to "make the connection" between disparate aspects of your life.
All events and circumstances in our lives are a silent dance that the Universe orchestrates for our highest good. Every coincidence or happenstance is actually a carefully planned event that connects you to your next level of learning. Beneath every event and circumstance is the hand of the Divine, co-creating with you in your life.
Kyanite is sending you a messagethat the obstacles that you see on your path will soon be overcome. New bridgeswill be built that will carry you over difficulty, and will allow you toperceive your connection to the Divine

Affirmation: The Universe isworking to connect me with my highest good.

 Energy Work energy work
Life can be electrifying becauseits very essence is energy. Your body is a remarkable energy field that willpositively respond to loving treatments. Your hands and heart are activated togive healing energy to your loved ones and clients.
Drawn from: Daily Guidance from your Angels Oracle Cards - Doreen Virtue
 You received this card because the Angels say you would benefit from energy work, such as Reiki, the Journey or Angel Healing. You can find a qualified practitioner by contacting About Holistic Website.
The Angels suggest that you initiate a session where you'd receive an energy healing treatment.
This card can also signify the Angels' message that your life purpose involves giving energy healing work to others. If you have training in this respect, or you've been guided to seek such training, this card is a sign that you would excel in this area,
Clear the energy in your home or other environments. You're very sensitive to energy, so regularly clear yourself of any energy you may have absorbed. Shield yourself by visualizing yourself surrounded by protective white and purple light. Take courses on energy healing work.

Affirmation: I am standing in the pure white light of God; I am free of all negative energy surrounding me

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Gotta wear shades

So it’s the Sunday before blood test Monday and chemo Tuesday. I have mixed feelings vacillating between quiet confidence and utter panic. The chemo side effects were worsened about 100x last time due to the infection I had. I am HOPING this time it won’t be so bad and I won’t get an infection. The past week I have gradually started feeling better and better. The good news is that I am almost symptom free. My pain levels are almost nonexistent and if I do have pain it is manageable with Panado so very low level. I have received 2 supplements which I ordered online called Graviola (supposed to eat cancer cells) and Moringa (an anti-oxidant and immune booster). I have been taking these recently and also doing my Rife treatments which are also immune boosting. With all of this as armour I am hoping that the chemo will NOT affect me so badly. It feels SO good to feel good and healthy. I’ve also chopped most of my hair off as it was beginning to fall out. Soon I will be rocking the bald look or wigs – am going wig shopping with my dear friend and stylist tomorrow.

Right now the future looks so bright I’m  gonna wear my shades! J

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Happy Go Lucky Bee

Just realised I usually only blog when I have something to moan about. So today I am going to break that mold. I have absolutely not one complaint today. Today everything is good. I have no pain. I feel fantastic. My spirits are high. I had a very, very good day. Today was also basically my last day of ‘loafing about’. I have officially been booked off for the week but I am SUCH a nerd I phoned my boss and asked her if I could work from home from tomorrow for the rest of the week. So to celebrate I took my parents and daughter out to lunch at Nitida wine farm. It was completely divine and relaxing. Still not done celebrating I then went shopping for some home d├ęcor stuff (moving in June to a lovely new home), then home to makeover my daughter’s room. The room now looks completely awesome and I realized I have missed my calling. Should bloody well be decorating or writing or a combination of the two. Hehe. Total dreaming of course as a change in career at this late stage in life might well be career suicide. Sigh. Maybe I shall just start a little on the side business whilst I continue with my project management career day job. That’s it from me today folks. Hope you all have a good and restful evening. And no it’s not the drugs talking! J

Monday, April 22, 2013

Paper Bag

Right so I was re-admitted to hospital on Friday feeling like an absolute paper bag, wash out, heroin junkie, just in general really, really bad. I looked worse than I felt if that could possibly be imagined. My dear dad drove me to the hospital – I was wheeled into admissions and the irritating poppie robot behind the desk started filling in her million forms in triplicate then actually looked at me and in a sickly sweet, poppie,  saccharine voice said “Oh lovey do you want to go to the ward NOW?” No darling what I would really like to do is punch you in the face but that’s not gonna happen now is it? I’m just sitting here  doubled over in pain and having a major panic attack but I’ll be just peachy – thanks, let’s do lunch. And maybe I showed her the universal call me symbol. What I actually said was GRUNT or words to that effect. So I was allowed to go to the ward – oh joy.

I had to wait for the nurses to do their dance of admission, tests, paperwork etc etc before being told that the doctor would see me to prescribe something at 3pm. I was admitted at 1pm. Long, long interminably long wait. Eventually saw dear Doctor Sweet who pronounced that I had e coli and needed to be treated accordingly. Great, Houston – we have a plan. She piled me with all manner of drugs including tranqs, anti biotics, pain killers etc, a veritable smorgasbord. Felt a lot better (cloudy / fuzzy) after that, still the weak and fuzzy feeling remained, very unpleasant. Doc told me I had to stay in hospital till Monday, then be off work for another week and then come back the week after that for second chemo cycle. I kinda wondered where I was going to have time to fit work into this busy regime. Doc took care of that by phoning my place of work to explain the recent turn of events to my dear colleague. I was then literally hooked up to an IV after several unsuccessful botched attempts to find a vein. Suffice to say I have bruises in places now that are not pretty.

 I settled into my ward with my roomies mostly older woman but all fairly pleasant and chatty. I was in no mood to win friends and influence people however. Stayed in hospital for 3 days, the highlight of which was a particularly raucous visit from 10 friends and family on Saturday. This prompted a rather angrily worded sign on the door shouting ONLY 2 VISITORS PER BED! Oops. 

On Sunday I started feeling semi human again thank God and was discharged much to my great delight. I am now booked off with strict instructions to take it easy at home till Friday. Then next Tuesday the 2nd chemo cycle begins. According to docs, this should be easier as my blood count is good and infection will be cleared up. We shall see.

I am now at home and feeling WORLDS better. My doctor was frankly amazed at my rapid recovery! I am in 3 minds about doing chemo again but am pondering and will let you all know.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Chemo Kicking Ass

OK to say the side effects have kicked my ass is literally an understatement. They started on Thursday, On Sunday I was admitted to hospital as I was having delirium tremens, hot and cold and just generally feeling weak and revolting. They discharged me on Tuesday but I am booked off till Friday with strict instructions to rest and take it easy. So I am trying to do that without driving myself mad from boredom and sleep overload. Anyone who has any words of wisdom NOW would be the time to share please.

On the good news side, my blood count is good and my kidney function is vastly improved from just 1 treatment.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Super Woman - 1 Chemo down 5 to go!

Yesterday was my first chemo treatment day. I was filled with mixed emotions ranging from apprehension to fear etc. The night before I had a Rife scan and this showed that on a cell level my body is in a very good state for healing. Blood also looked good according to the scan so that was good news. I am continuing with the Rife treatments to support me through the chemo in terms of support to immune system etc . so that seems to be working very well!  

So the morning arrived and first thing to do was to get blood tests done. My appointment with my doctor was for 10h30. She examined me and pronounced all was well from that. The blood tests arrived and all looked good for blood counts. So in I went to the chemo room for first treatment. The drug they are using in Taxotere and I received a pamphlet with it as to what to expect, also some meds to help me with nausea – not cheap these either approx. R600 for 3 tabs!! The treatment is intravenous and took about 1hr and 45 minutes to complete during which time I was chatting on gmail and facebook on my phone and reading a book. The one thing I forgot about which happened last time was that once they put the 2nd bag on which is basically saline to flush the drugs through your system, your bladder wants to work immediately and a lot. Due to my current bladder problem that caused an issue. So I moved self from the very comfy easy chair into the room with a bed dragging my drip behind me. I must say both treatment rooms are the epitome of comfort. On the easy chair I had a foot rest and a blanket and constant offers of help and tea from the nurses. They are very good at Solway treatment centre.

They also gave me a blue premed pill which made me very sleepy and rendered me unable to drive home. So once again the cavalry in form of good friend and my dad arrived to get me and my car home. Lesson learned, next time I won’t be driving myself to treatment!

I got home at about 3pm quite tired but in good spirits, no pain no nausea and no side effects just yet. Had a nice dinner and an early night. My other good friend, insisted on replacing my old stupid fridge (just broken down recently) for me, so that was so cool of her – am VERY excited about that!

This morning I woke up feeling absolutely great. I am still taking the very expensive anti nausea tabs but SO FAR have had no side effects. I am feeling a little weak but I am sure sleep and food will sort that out pronto. I don’t want to preempt anything too much and will take it 1 hour, 1 day at a time but so far am feeling really good! 

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Vampire Diaries

Phew it’s been a bumpy ride lately. My chemo was supposed to start on Tuesday last week after the long weekend. On the Monday holiday, I found myself incapable of getting out of bed. I was weak and felt nauseous, not a good combo. My dear daughter actually took my temperature and then called my parents to come through. I heard her outside on the phone saying: “Mommy is not well, please come and help.” Bless her little cotton socks.

I called the oncologist who told me to stay in bed and have some blood tests done in the morning before coming to have chemo. So Tuesday morning I did the blood tests which showed that I had lost a lot of blood and blood counts were very low. So low in fact that I needed to be admitted for a blood transfusion. Chemo would not be happening that day. I was admitted to the ward and had the transfusion overnight. It was not a pleasant experience but I seriously felt like a new person once the new blood was running through my veins, quite amazing. I was discharged the next morning and have been booked off work since then. On Tuesday I will go for more blood tests and then they will determine if I can start chemo.

They have put me on antibiotics for infection as well as given me stuff to stop the bleeding. At this point I am really feeling fantastic. I have NO pain, no infection and feel stronger than I have in a long time. I am at odds though about the chemo. It seems the universe is trying to delay this and I need to listen to that warning. My gut feel is still not entirely convinced that chemo is the right way to go but I also don’t feel like I have any other viable option. I am doing all the ‘other’ work and alternatives but I need to feel absolutely convinced about my treatment plan. I am working on this through some therapy and await a bolt of lightning to show me the way!